Posted July 1st, 2014 @ 11:08pm
Wow, while this made me very sad to hear, I felt much empathy for what Nicole has went through with Bulimia, and I'm happy that she was able to work through this crippling addiction. She revealed her struggle in an interview with Cosmo UK.
At the height of her fame with the Pussy Cat Dolls, it would have seemed that Nicole had it all. The truth was very different. No one knew, not even her close friends and family, that the "paralyzing" struggle that is bulimia (or any eating disorder) was ruling her life. Here are some excerpts from the interview:
"[Opening up about bulimia] was hard for me to speak about.. It still is hard, and thinking about it I try not to well up. It is such a horrible paralyzing disease and it was such a dark time for me.. That's why I can empathize so much with people who have demons and voices in their heads, who aren't nice to themselves. It robs you of living your life. But you can recover and you can get rid of it forever. I did it and that's why it's so important for me to share my story. I felt so alone...but I made myself so alone. You hide it from the world, you isolate yourself. But you can beat it—do not give up because you're so special and you're meant for such great things."
"I had started losing my voice, I couldn't sing at shows, and then I remember my manager finding me passed out on the floor in Malta or in the south of France.. I thought, ‘I'm going to lose everything I love if I don't love myself.' One day when you feel like you've reached the end, you just say, ‘I'm not doing this anymore.' It's sad to see how I wasted my life. I had such a great life on the outside, the Dolls were on top of the world but I was miserable on the inside. I'm never letting that happen again; you only get one life—I was 27 only once."
I'm happy to hear that Nicole reached a point where she got help and was able to cope with it and had the strength and courage to share her private struggle. When people reveal struggles, it makes me relate more. I'm sure there are young women out there that will benefit from hearing this. And overall, it shows us again that we can't compare our insides (how we feel) to someone else's outside's.. because ias this case shows us, things are not always what they seem. Everyone is struggling with something!